For the majority of my life, I suffered from anxiety and depression. Each morning I would wake up either in a fright and run straight out the room or feel like the weight of the world was on my chest and I couldn't breathe. This was my "normal".
So why the name Healing to Happy?
After unexpectedly losing my mom to addiction in 2014, I set out on a path of self-destruction. I binged, I purged, I partied, I over-exercised, and I surrounded myself in a toxic environment which ultimately lead me into a relationship where I watched the grips of addiction steal the light from the man I loved as well.
Unable to cope with the emotions I was feeling, I took it out on my body because when the world around you is shifting so quickly and without explanation, what’s the one thing you can control? Your plate.
At the time I was 30 pounds underweight, I couldn’t poop and was dealing with IBS that I had invested thousands of dollars into “healing”, I had lost my period, my hormones were out of whack, I had zero sex drive, my hair was falling out, my skin was flaring up, and I had hyperthyroidism.
To say my body was broken is literally the understatement of the year- I was a mess.
I’d be lying if I said this was the first time I had felt this gutted (pun intended), but I can say that it was my last.
I watched as too many people I loved lost control and fell victim to the stories they cycled themselves inside by disrespecting their health, so I started with nutrition.
I enrolled in the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and began to start making peace with my enemy- food. Thus began my journey of countless of hours of research and painstaking trial and error to uncover the answers that ultimately changed my life forever.
I tried it all: elimination diets, paleo, keto, vegan, vegetarian, low FODMAP, fasting… basically I was eating air and still, your girl couldn’t poop.
It wasn’t until I realized that everybody is unique in their own delicious way and their health plan should reflect that. Through trial and error, I found out what worked best for me and my unique body.
I began to not only feel better but I started to gain more mental clarity and my anxiety and depression began to lift. On top of that my IBS was healing and the bloating that I had thought was “normal” was in fact not normal. This is what sparked my interest in the gut-brain connection.
I went on to become certified as a specialist in Gut Health through IIN (Institute for Integrative Nutrition), where I dove head (and gut) first into my studies. Through my studies, I found that 90% of our serotonin – our happy hormone – is housed in our gut lining.
Did you know the antidepressants that doctors prescribe to treat depression are called Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs)? I began to question why they were giving me something to balance my brain when 90% of it is housed in my gut walls.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying these things don’t have their time and their place, but I think we should take a look from a nutritional and lifestyle standpoint first followed by supplementation and medications second.
This is why I decided that to heal my anxiety, depression, and IBS, I needed to take a dual approach, not just from the top-down but from a bottom-up as well.
Once I took a holistic approach to heal my health, I was able to heal myself to happy in every sense of the word, hence Healing to Happy. All of my above symptoms were reversed and most importantly, I haven't had a panic attack in YEARS.
Getting healthy is far more than just being fit and drinking green smoothies. Being healthy is the way you show your body self-respect. It’s about owning your life’s story, shattering through your limiting beliefs, understanding your unique health (especially your gut health!) and how that plays on your mental health and overall wellbeing.
Being healthy results in becoming empowered by your daily doings so you can heal yourself to happy, every day.
Trust me when I say, I know what it’s like to feel defeated, lost, and powerless. I know what it feels like to feel like your body is working against you and that you’re losing the war.
Trust me when I say I also know what it feels like to rise strong and to not give up.
The Healing to Happy Programs are the pragmatic solution you’ve been looking for healing anxiety and depression without medications. They combine science, mindset, and tools so that you can truly understand and become an expert in your own health and heal your way to happy too.